unappreciated????

bby....if u have not realised...sometimes ur werds...the way u talk to me,the way u treat me do hurt me alot....every silence of mine...has sumtinz hidden behind it...almost 7 mths plus u wit me...i tink u should noe me really well now ...am i ryte....?haiss...i just cant trust u when u are not wit me...cause i dnt wantthe same tinz repeats again....to tell u the truth...nowdays u tend to easily get mad wen u dnt get what u wanted and u lyke to throw tantrums and show attitude towards me....why???am i tat cruel???have i ever ever done sumtinz that is so bad towards u???have i ever betrayed u??have i ever dont bother abt ur feelings??have i???bie...all i ever wanted is for u to prove me that u can be sumone that succeed and diff frm the rest....hais!!

i love you!!!

I HATE IT WHEN YOU LIE!!!

FIRSTLY I WANT TO SAE THANK ALOT FOR FOLLOWING ME GO JLN  RAYE WITH MY FRENZ......AND I NVR EXPECTED THAT U HAVE TO GO JUST LYKE THAT....U SAE THAT U ARE TIRED AND U HAVE TO GO HOME......BUT ACCUALI U WANTED TO GO OUT..MIT THEM.....N NOW USAID THAT ACCUALI DRG ADER HAL TAT Y U HAVE TO GO JUST LYKE THAT......ABEH ADR HATI KATER NK GY IKOT BAI UAT GAME CARD.....U LIED TRO ME!!!!!U TKNK I RISAU BY SAYING THAT.....HEY.....IM I UR GF OR AM I UR FRENZ......?NIE U KATER SSH SAMER2...SNG,,SAMER2.....EIK I NOE THEY ARE UR BLOOD....U NEED THEM MORE THEN U NEED ME....SSH SNG DRG BLH TLG...U NOE THEM MUCH LONGER THAN U NOE ME....ERR!!!...THIS IS UR LIFE......U WANT TO LIFE IT THIS WAY.....SO......I SERIOUSLY GIVE UP ON U.......HALANG ORG YG TAK MUNGKIN AKN DGR.....SO MIGHT AS WELL I SHUT UP.......SERIOUSLY......MY PATIENCE HAS A LIMIT......I TRY MAKE UP EVERY SINGLE THINGS TO U BUT U.....HAIS...NVRM......N U THINK IM PEACEFUL HERE AT HOME THINK WAT MIGHT HAPPENED TO U........I HATE THIS LIFE.......KNAPER SSH SGT ORG NK PAHAM....PPL MRH...BISING ...PSL ORG SYG.....KALO TAK......I WONT BOTHER TO EVEN TINK ABT U.........U LIE TO ME......N I HATE PPL THAT LIES......!!!KALO NIE HOW U WANT BEHAVE.....DEN I TINK...FRM NOW ON.....KALO I SSH MCM ANER PON...I WONT TELL U........I MAKE  SURE...I  SOLVE IT O0N MY OWN.......TODAE IS MY BIGGEST DISAPPOINTMENT IN U.....!

I BCK OFF ...!

STARTING FRM TODAE ONWARDS......NOW..........I BCK OFF

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SORRIE THAT I HAVE TORTURED UR LIFE BY BEING JEALOUS.........

U WANT DO ANYTHINZ NOW.....PAPE LAR TAK KESAH....CNTCT SAPE2....MSG SAPER2.....I WONT SAE ANYTINZ......GO AHEAD!!!

U WANT TALKED ABT I DNT CARE ABT UR FEELING???TAK PERNAH?????PIKIR BTOL2.......THEN HAVE U EVER CARE ABT MY FEELING???PERNAH KE???

U SAID U TRIED TO GAIN MY TRUST BCK???THIS HOW U SHOW IT TO ME??KAYY DNT SIMPLE LAR......

U DNT NEED TO BOTHER  ABT ME......WAT IMPORTANT NOW.....U HAVE UR FREEDOM.........UR PATIENCE HAVE FADE AWAY???KAYY DEN....FRM NOW ON....DNT BOTHER AITES.....CORZ I PROMISE THAT I WONT  AND I WILL NOT INTERFERE IN UR LIFE AITES.......IM SRE U WILL BE HAPPY NOW.....U GET WAT U WANT...........ONCE AGAIN IM SORRIE FOR ALL THAT TORTURING AND JEALOUSY FOR U.......

FISHY!FISHY!FISHY!

TRUST????HMM......U MAKE ME DNT TRUST U MORE AND MORE........WHY???THE WAY U ACT.....THE WAY U TREAT ME.......THE WAY U TXT ME......THE WAY U TALK TO ME....

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ALL HAVE CHANGED.....!ARE THE LOVE FADING AWAY FOR ME???OR ARE U SICK

AND TIRED OF ME???I WONDER......CAUSE THERE IS ALOT OF

CHANGES IN U TAT I HAVE KEPT TO MYSELF.........

WHY IS IT HARD FER ME TO TRUST U???

I GIVE U CHANCE TO PROVE ME TAT U CN GAIN MA TRUST BCK

BUT

I STYLL CAN GET OVER IT......WHY IAM SO JEALOUS WITH EVERY BITS THAT U DONE.....THE JEALOUSY FOR U IS SO SO SO DAMN STRONG......I DNT NOE WHY.....

I WISH AND I HOPE TO GET TAT FEELING OVER IT SO TAT DERE IS A FREEDOM TO WATEVER U WANT DO.......

I REALLY REALLY TRYING MY BEST TO THROW THAT FEELING OF JEALOUSY FOR U.....

SO TAT I WONT FEEL MISERABLE.....HAISS!:(

what have i done???

Have i done anythinz wrong to u????what's up with the sarcastics and anger voice????i called u to talked to u but u talked to me lyke as if u  are shouting to me.....but wen i told u that.....u deny......u said that u talk to me nicely.....cumon....i have known u abt 6 mth plus.....i noe wen is ur normal voice and when it is diff.....haiss...!i dnt get it why lately u tend to get mad......mad abt what???i myself did not noe.....asyik aku yg dimrh......the changed in u........it is lyke as if it is not the same hubby that i have noe before.....:(.....u no more that loving ,caring and sweet spokened guy that i have known......:(haiss.....i miss hym....

SUMTIMES U ARE HAPPY BUT AT TIMES U ARE NOT

BBY.....WHAT  WRONG WITH U????ARE U HIDING SUMTINZ FRM ME OR WAT???NOWDAYS U TEND TO GET MAD EASILY......UR MOOD IS UNPREDICTABLE......U TEND TO BE HAPPY  BUT AT TIMES U ARE NOT.....WHY????WHAT'S UP WITH THE DIFFERENT IN U????HAVE I DONE ANYTHINZ WRONG????IF YES.....IM SORRIE!!!...I DUNT WANT U TO HIDE ANYTHINZ FRM ME.....I DNT!HAISS...!!!ANW......ABOUT UR TUMBLIR....IM GUESS U ARE RYTE...IM EXPECTING ALOT FRM U.......IM SORRIE......!I JUST WANT THE BEST FER US.......I TRY TO LET U GO.....FREEDOM FOR U.....BUT I CANT......CAUSE...EVERY BITS THAT U DONE WILL TEND TO RISE JEALOUSY FRM ME....HAISSS.....!!IF ONLY I CAN THROW AWAY THAT FEELING.......IM SURE U WILL BE HAPPY FRM DEN ON..........IM SORRIE...........

LOVING U IS A PLEASURE & 

                     I NEED TO TREASURE YOU.......

THX FOR BEING SO CONCERN....

firstly u dnt mean what u sae...and now u talked to me lyke showing attitude.....

what wrong wit u?????for  the whole six mths plus....today is the day u really really show that u dnt gif a damn on me....wahliao.....nie bukan nk ungkit ke aper.....bler kau saket.....aku jage kau maha jage......smpi aku pon fall sick.....but now wen aku saket....nie mcm kau layan aku.....thx.......u really knocked me in the head hard.....make me realise.....'K PAPE,TQYA BUANG MASE BBL PANJANG2 EYK.NQ DTQ,DTQ,TQNQ SUDAH.ABES CITE"this is wat u sae to me..........wat u guys feel if ur guy talk to u lyke tis????sedey kn????am i ryte.......n sumore wen u are sick lagy.......haisss...!wat a day i have to beginnig wit...........u tearing me apart......thx alot......i will remember tis dayy......:(:(:(:(:(:(:(::((::(

 LOOKING FORWARD FOR WHAT U SAID

I WAS SICK AND THAT WHY I WANTED U TO FETCH ME BCORZ MA BODY IS WEAK .U SAID TO ME THAT U WILL FETCH ME AT AMK EARLIER  BUT NOW U ASKED ME TO COME DERE BY MYSELF...IS THIS HOW U SHOW UR CONCERN BIE???I REALLY WANT TO MEET U CAUSE NXT WK BOTH OF US ARE SKEWLING AND SUMORE U ARE WERKING...WHERE GOT TYME TO MEET ....IM JUST ASKING U A SIMPLE FAVOUR THAT IS TO FETCH ME NOT EVEN AT MY HOUSE ITS HALFWAY OF THE JOURNEY...IF IM NOT SICK I WONT BURDEN U TO EVEN FETCH ME...I CAN GO DERE MY OWN...HAISS!I EVEN CALLED U....BUT U DIDNT ANSWERED..Y?CAUSE U ARE SLEEPING....U WENT HOME IN THE MORNING AND U WANT TO MEET ME AND YET U WILL BE SLEEPING....MIGHT AS WELL I LET U SLEEP N DNT BOTHER U...SO WE DNT MEET.....IN THE EVENING U WANT TO MEET UR FRENZ ALREADY...MIGHT AS WELL I STAY AT HOME ...I WONT BE DISTURBING OR BURDEN ANYONE ....HAISS......JUST HAVE A GD SLEEP....TCRE.....:(

TYME CHANGED,PEOPLE CHANGED

Just now accompany my dearest hubby to bugis street to buy shirts.....Then aft buying his stuff...we went to KFC to eat  our dinner.....when eating...we had a slight arguement.....since yesterdae he have been draging his feeling towards me.....org laen yg salah....aku yg kene....and he scold me over a food....and when i tegor hym....he lyke dnt lyke......he slam his drinks on the table......tat was the first tyme he did tat to me.....:(......tyme changed...ppl changed.........and yet......to get rid of me....he sent me home.........soooo sad xia.......y suddenly he lyke tat??????he soooo bad.............u soo mean to me nowdays........:(:(:(:(:(:(.....u dnt love me animore.............