sickening!!!!

otp wit smurfy just now......and suddenly i gets irritated by his action.....u only have that amount of money and u styll want play lan........i dont might luh if u want play or watsover crap but come on luh tink!!!!tink!!!u only have that few dollars....might as well u used it to keep ur tummy full.....its true lar that money can find but u are not using it wisely.....errrr!!!ssh luh nk tegor....bkn nyer nk dgr.....and he styll can sae  to me 'u want i maen lan ke angkat power'wth!!!this is too much......u used to promise to me that u wont take all tat stuff,stop drinking and no more tattooo ......but in fact u did get drunk and u styll draw on ur body........lie!lie!lie!haisss!!!!!ssh luh nk tegor org yg stubborn....big rock sitting on that head of urs!!!!!aft all u are big enuf to tink wats ryte and wat wrong......after all its ur money......up to u u want to do watever shit with it.......i have to admit that i prefer talking to u in person rather than otp..........btol mama saes"dier ader angin......bler mood ouhkayyy,t dier baek lar sgt2......tpy bler angin taufan dier dtg,sumer dier nk tiup......mengamok 2....'

Fuck lar xia!!!!!!!mepek bdh kau!!!!!its just a stupid topic the 3 of us tok abt n we take it as a joke...yg kau nk melebih asl plak???...asl kau tak lei terime ???!!!!mcm kau uat slh plak???!!!its a stupid pic tat was being tagged and we ppl cmmted on it.......tak slh aperr???!!!!!fb tak kater pon tak lei bbl thru cmmt???does it??.!!!kayy go eikk!!!if kau tak bbl tu mcm.....aku tak psl....nie kau dah bbl mcm siak....so aku cntinue knnn......sooo.... kalo lps nie kau nk gdh ngan aku psl bende ulu2 gynie.....terserah kayyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

why should it end this way????

aft gone thru this far and now u are saying this to me???where are all ur promises????where bby??!is it mean to be a lie....are we cuming to an end????to sae frankly....its true that we often gone thru ups and down but i thoughts that we can go thru it together but u show me that u dont.....its is part and parcel of  being in rlationship ....although  deres alot of tyme wen u really blow my patient of but i styll holding on to u cause i really really lurve u and being apart is quite dificult for me....once i lurve sumone ....its hard for me to let them go....i agreed that i am over controling maself.....thinz had happened once and i dont want it to happens twice.....u understand me ryte???i try to talked tinz out wit u but u tend to get mad and cant face the fact wat im telling u.....that y im tend to keep to maself....how should i phrase it......hmmm....kayyy seriously the way u txt me earlier does hurt me deeply....bie....!its obvious that u want me to leave u ryte........???????u should asked urself y im acting differently to u recently......the way u txt,the way u treat me and stuff has changed.....for gd at tyme and bad recently......but y???!!i dnt hate u......i dnt.....ma action is asking and trying to changed u to a better ones but bie.....u dnt and u cnt accept the way im delivering it....im sorrie bby.....and for now.....wat u really really want frm me now????????dnt lie urself if u cant cause it will just hurt sumone else.....i dont noe why but im soooo soooo sad ryte now......:(if holding me on is a burden.....then let me gooo......i wont force u to stay wen ur heart is not dere with me........make ur decision wisely and dnt regret ........haisss.....if only u were in ma shoes.....:(:(:(:(:(

what a pathetic day of mine....

Today early in the morning went aljunied meet smurfy at wan's house.Mengong and aidil is dere too...Early in the morning started with a slight arguement with hym....i was telling hym abt what me ,yanii and ohneyt  comment at one of the pic that i dislike.....then suddenly he lyke cnnt get the fact ......then he lyke scold2 me  and  then he left me like that and he go wan house first cause at that tyme we are buying food.....heee...cnnt fast....:P.....then aft that i kept quite cause im a bit fuck up...then aft that...smurfy pujok me...heee....then i ouhkayyy already .....then....my forever 21 cardigen was thown....luckily smurfy saw it......then smurfy sew it for me....heee...thx bby....!aft that we take a nap.....suddenly went i awake i saw 'ika siow'.....been wanting to talked to her abt sumtinz i heard....but den she left.....then i awaked hym but he mrh2 me....:(asyik kene mrh jek aku nie.....haiss...!then went down awhile to buy drink with smurfy ...and saw ika....aper lagy....i approached her lor.....and asked her......but wat make me mad.....wen tat tyme smurfy told me abt tis,then when i confronting her and i asked smurfy..he sae he did not noe.....wth sei!!!!and wat make it worse when ika talked to me lyke 'BIG FUCK" lyke that.......wah liow....!!!!ni nau yah!!!!nie org2 nie.....kter baek ngn drg.....drg pijak2 kpale kter......!then...aft that ,in the evening..went to hospital visit smurfy's dad....otw dere inside bus..he make me paiseh xia....he sae 'dah nk tron'den i get up frm ma sit ....skali he maen2 jek....lyke...ppl sumer tgk kn....kalo kter uat dier tawu dier marah....hmmm....dier ajer uhk yg btol lar kn......aft that went home while he went aljunied to changed his pants first b4 heading to bazaar with frenz......hmmm.....to sae frankly.....i dnt trust hym....if im not wit hym....cause tat is wen he will do and create nonsense.......mengatal ke tak...i might not noe....cause guys...are guys.....i noe how they will react.....hmmm.....hopefully he noe how to behave.....ouhkayy bby...maybe im jealous or controlling u izzit???haiss.....tat y i dnt lyke when i really love that sumone.....cause i will then to get sensitive easily.....cause the love is do deep....haisss!!!and one more thinz that i notice when he meets his frenz or when im not wit hym......he dnt really look for me recently....kalo i nvr txt hym ..he wont....now also....kalo reply ma msg sumer pendek2.....hmm???is he trying to hint me or show me sumtinz?????????it keeps me wondering and wondering....that is the reason for me to be gazing away each tyme when im alone.....haiss....:(are ma existence  bothering u????if yes.....im sorrie......:(:(:(

 FeeLing toTalLy  BORED!BORED!BORED!

Today spent my whole day at home ....help my mum clean her room....now left only the living room to be clean....hmmm....soo tired but at the same tyme soo bored.....today cnnt met ma bby....to day den meet hym...anw....i hope that baba is alryte....hmmm....been txting hym the whole day but he did nt reply...tdo memanjang....kalo dah tdo tak igt dunie luh ....hmmm....nxt wk dah start skewl....then fri is my exam....cpt pek...!!!!haiyooo!!!!styll in holiday mood xia....hmmm...so freaking bored lar xia....what to write sumone also im not sure..hahhax!hmm...write again soon..:P

                               What wrong wit YOU???                                  
seriously i dont understand wat wrong wit u.......at times u tend to be happy and at times u tend to be grumpy.....when even we are in gd condition,sumtimes u tend to throw tantrums at me.....why????bler uat slh mrh,bler tak uat slh pon mrh ????haisss......wats wrong wit this world?????6  mths has past....we should noe each other better and  less argument.....but nie????just now when i meet u....u were totally  cheerful and u treat me so gd.....and then when im bck home........txt to u...u reply bck sumer pendek2.....den otp pon bbl lyke nak tak nk.......haisss...!!!did i do sumtinz wrong?????if i do.....im sorrie EDY.....:(
all i ever wanted is to be happy wit u..anw thx for making ma day bie.......I LURVE MA BBY....!

LOVE ME WITHOUT FEAR,TRUST ME WITHOUT RESTRICTION,WANT ME WITHOUT DEMAND,ACCEPT ME WHO I AM...

WONDERING WHY PPL TEND TO BE BRAVE TO TALK BCK BUT COWARD WHEN CONFRONT????
I DNT GET IT WHAT HER MOTIVE.......SHE TRYING TO LOVE/LIKE EACH ONE OF THE GUYS????KIWAK LUH.....FIRST TYME IN MA WHOLE LIFE I HEARD PMPN SAE 'TKPER'EVENTHOUGH SHE NOES THAT GUYS ARE MAKING USED OF HER......MURAH SGT PEK DEKNIE?????HAIYOOOO!!!!!JATOOH MARTABAT KAUM PMPN.....!!!!PRANGAI STOP IT LUH.......U ACTING LYKE 1 DESPERATE GURL TAWU TAKK.....TAK MALUU KER......SMPI KN DUE2 KWN AKU NK KAU.....HAIYOOOO.....U SAE PRANGAI TAKMAU MCM ADEKK2.....BUT HELLOOO !!!DO U NOE THAT U ACTING LYKE ONE.....THE FACT APER...KAU MASEH ADEK2 AGY......PIKIRAN BLM MATANG.....BRANI BBL BLAKANG..TAPY FACE TO FACE TAWU PLAK KAU COL.....HERAAAN UHK.............GET A LYFE GERL........KALO KAU TREAT ORG TKDER CARE.....ORG WILL TREAT KAU MCM GYTU JGK TAWU......AND GET THIS IN UR HEAD KAYY KWN.....DNT BCORZ OF A GUY ,KAU NK GDH.........SIAK UHK KAU......MATAER ORG PON KAU NK....????KAU NIE APER PUKI MISKIN KEPER???????MALUUU SAK AKUUU......TGK KAUUU......HAISSS!!!!!AKU RASE UMOR KAU BLM LAGY MATANG UHK NK PIKIR NIE SUMER......HAIYOOO!!!!AND GET THIS IN UR HEAD......TAKMAU NK MSG2 SMURF OR KOL HYM......KALO AKU DPT TAWU KAU TUDOH DIER MCM2 EVENTHOUGH DIER TAK UAT PAPE KAT KAU......KAU SIAP....!!!ANW IF LAR KN U READ MA BLOG AND U FIND THAT U ARE NOT SATISFIED WITH WAT I WROTE THEN BY ALL MEANS CARIK AKU KAYY..




        

PROMISE ARE MEANT TO BE BROKEN..

im wondering why does ppl tend to make a promise when they cant even  hold on to it.....why can the promise made by them is easily broken???if u dnt mean wat u have promise then why in the first place is  spilt out the word 'PROMISE' .....for example ,sumone promise to u tat he wont go some event....BUT end up she /he go.....or he/she said that he/she wont drink or smoke  BUT end up they do it.......den why promise?????this is random....but im just wondering........do this ppl know how it feel like when u broke ur promises ?????or to be specific how the person that u have promised felt.........this is what we called it 'janji melayu'.....action more than words.....byk bbl byk bohong......if only this ppl know and mean what they have promised.......the world will be like heaven......and i could not understand why we need to say example 'demi u.....i tak akn uat nie.....demi u,i tak kn pegy' when eventually they will do and go.....why???why????who can tell me the perfect reason......???anione???we just need to be ourself may it infront of our frenz,family or even our bf/gf..........being urself and just urself is the best way  to make ppl love u......

BUKE WITH CLASSMATES AT LAU PA SAT

Today i break fast with ma fellow ITE peeps....meet up at raffles control station and then when off to lau pa sat.....at the eating place....im quite annoyed by the 'waiter'....they kept following us eventhough we said that we dnt want eat their stall's food....i ordered kway teow goreng which end up mcm tak mkn......wasted my 4 bucks....then we ordered satay lembu and ayam......end up the satay is not nice....all of us was like in the rush.....and tat why ordered food that is not nice....but after all enjoyed eating out with them......the ppl tat are with me was nadhrah,ain,fatz,nab,zee,syaheed,zaidi and najib..aft that we all camwhore......the pics are with ain....so blom upload yet.......more outing again hor.....:P

                      life is always full with ups and downs....                     


i wonder why must life full with ups and downs ,sometimes it is so wonderful and at time it  is just full with misery.........abt relationship???hmmm...trying to get better.......yesterday.....smurfy wanted to meet and we meet up at his place....on my way there.....i keep calling and calling hym but he did not ans as he is sleeping.....smurfy nie kalo dah tdo ltk bomb kat sblah pon tak sadar.....then when i reached there,i knocked at his door for a few time and styll try to call hym.....but he is styll happily sleeping......i felt annoyed and went down and sat at the bench.............i try calling hym for the last tyme and if he did not ans.....i will go bck home......luckily he ans.....and i saw hym went down the stairs.....when he awakes and realise that i give hym 48 miss call...he quickly went down to look for me.......swit lar pulak pat tu......heee......


but today.......when he came to my house........he suddenly moody......then mcm perangai gytu....haiyoooo...heran luh......sejap  ouhkayyy,sejap tak.......haisss!!!u say u want changed bby......but ....hmmmm...nvrm......but i believe u can......u just need time........as for long as i can i will  be there for u...........life is full with obstacles but we need to resolve it.............

ONCE I STARTS HATING YOU.....I WILL HATES YOU FOREVER.........FUCK OFF!!!!!

HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF THE RUMOURS THAT U HEARD FRM OTHER ABT YOUR LOVE ONES TEND TO BE TRUE??????I LEFT HYM FOR A WHILE AND I HEARD ALL KIND OF RUMOURS ABT HYM AND THAT BELOVED CUZZIN OF HIS......I DNT TRUST WAT I HEARD FULLY CORZ I NEED TO LISTEN TO BOTH PARTIES......THEN IT WILL BE FAIR.....AND I WAS DAMN SHOCK OR SHOULD I SAE DISAPPOINTED WEN HE SAE IT WAS TRUE.......TAK KE MCM SIAK????PELUK2???BARING KAT LAP???KISS HER CHEEKS????TU U SAE GURAU......?????NOW THEN I NOE.......I NOE UHK...SHE HAS BEEN WITH U SINCE U WERE SMALL ....AM I RYTE...??????N U NOE HER MORE THAN ME.....IF U TINK SHE IS THE ONE THAT IS BETTER FOR U.......THEN GO FOR HER.....SAPER KATER...CUZIN NGAN CUZZIN CANT FALL FOR EACH OTHER..........USED TO TOLD ME...DAH ADER MATAER ACT LYKE ONE BUT ARE U??????...DNT BCORZ OF HER......ONE DAY.....I HAVE TO LET U8 GOO.....WHICH GURL LYKE TO BE TREATED LYKE THIS......NO ONE....!CONCLUSION.....DNT PUT HIGH HOPE FOR THE ONES THAT U LURVE CORZ ONE DAY  YOU WILL EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED........

IM STRESS RYTE NOW...!

im stress ryte now....thinking abt mama,money,life and ma dearest smurfy....how i wish i can be happy lyke others....mama....i noe u are stress wit situation in the house..n u werk hard to support the family...n i noe to find money its difficult....i noe that....n i noe that u are disappointed with ur children but nevertheless...u support ur children....im sorrie that i have disappoint u.....i lurve u mama....!i try finding werk so that i can support myself and avoid asking mum for money .but its hard to find one as im skewling.....i want werk not for fun .....i want to werk to help out ma mum too....my life now is getting miserable....no ones knows....corz i tend to kept to myself....my life currently full with ups and down.....haiss....i cnt handle it much longer.....bby.....i dnt noe wat is wrong with u but wat i noe that u are diff lately......tend to get fuck up easily n stuff....im not sure y...is it bcroz of me or other reason.....i easily get scolded by u.....sumtimes we fought i dunnoe y.....suddenly u tend to throw tantrums at me.........u embarssed me ryte infront of ur fellow frenz.......but i keep quite.....i keep asking to myself wat have i done.....am i that cruel????dnt i have feeling lyke others ?????..haiss....bby....u dnt understand how i feel ryte now.....:(






and to ma dearest frenz im sorrie corz i drag feeling towards u....i dont mean to.....im stress....n u tend to add up to my burden.....im sorrie if ma werds just now are too harsh......im really really sorrie.....i hope u understand how i feel now........sorrie once again.....

THE WORST NATIONAL DAY CELEBRATION EVER...

JUST NOW I MIT YANII AT BEDOK INTERCHANGE BEFORE GOING TO TOWN AND MEET THE REST....I WORE HIGH HEEL CORZ YANII ASKED TO WEARED HEEL SAME WIT HER...SOO PAISEH XIA....WALKED AROUND THEN PPL KEEP LOOKING AT US.....HAIYA......THEN WHEN WE TOOK TRAIN TO GO MIT THE REST....A MAN LYKE PERVERT KEEP LOOKING AT ME AND YANII....IRRITATING XIA....SICK IN THE BRAIN....I AM A BIT FUCK UP WHEN WE REACHED CITY HALL....HE DONT EVEN FETCH ME....KLUH DNT SAE ABT FETCH,NOT EVEN CALL OR TXT ME WHERE AM I IN THE CROWDED PLACES.......THIS IS ONE OF THE POINT THAT SHOW U DNT EVEN CARE........WAS DAMN PIECE OFF BUT WHEN MIT HYM AND THE REST....AT FIRST HE DONT EVEN BOTHER TO TALK TO ME.....WALKED WIT HER.....LYKE WTH!!THX....IF I NOE THIS WILL HAPPEN I SWEAR THAT I WILL NOT GO OUT ..........AM I UR GF OR WAT??????I GUESS IM NOT...BUT SHE IS......EVEN YANII AND OHNEYT SAID THAT.......THEN WENT OFF TO GRANDLINK...ALEH2 HE PRANGAI WITH ME....C...WHO YG GO TO HYM AND PUJOK.......NVRM.....I HAD ENOUGH OF ALL TIS.....I AM NOT BEING RESPECTED AS UR GF.........BILER DAH KAT GRANDLINK.....I HAVE SOME PROB.....U DNT NOE RYTE...U JUST THROW ME WIT UR ANGER .......I JUST KEEP QUITE AND WENT OFF....U EMBARASSED ME INFRONT OF UR FRENZ BY THROWING TANTRUMS.........I TAWU MALU.....I AM NOT A DOG...EVEN DOG HAVE FEELING I GUESS....U WONT  BE SEEING ME.......U CN NOW SPENT UR TYME WIT UR FAMILY ,FRENZ AND CUZZIN......AS U USED TO SAE THAT U DNT REALLY HAVE THE TYME TO SPENT WITH THEM BCORZ OF ME RYTE......NOW U WILL........DOESNT MEAN THAT I KEEP SILENCE,IM OUHKAYY WITH EVERYTHINZ THAT HAPPENS INFRONT OF ME........I WONT SAE TO U ANIMORE WAT IS WRONG AND WAT IS RYTE...U CN DECIDE URSELF.......U HAVE SUMONE THAT CAN T CRE OF U MORE THAN I DO........ ..BEING DERE FOR U ISNT WAT U WANTED.....AM I RYTE..????ALSO JUST NOW...................RARA  SAE TO ME THAT SHE HEARD FRM MEIMEI..SMURF N ME DAH BREAK...WRH!DOWN XIA....I JUSY WANT U TO REALISE THAT I AM REALLY HEAR BY THE WAY U TREAT ME............U TCRE..........

I PRAY HARD NOTHING HAPPENED TO U

I HATE THIS TYME...ANOTHER 1 HOUR IS YOUR COURT CASE...I WANT TO BE DERE WITH U BUT U INSISTED...CORZ U DNT WANT IF ANYTHING HAPPENESTO U,IT WILL BE HARD FOR U TO C ME IN TEARS....BBY...HOW I WISH I CAN CHANGE THE TYME BCK TO THE PAST AND CORRECT U FRM UR MISDEED....HAISS....I PRAY HARD THAT NOTHING WILL HAPPENS TO U.....IF ANYTHINZ DOES HAPPENS....I WILL AND I SWEAR THAT I WILL WAIT FOR U....AND MY LURVE FOR U WONT CHANGE....EVENTHOUGH OUR ALMOST 6 MTHS TOGETHER HAVE GONE THRU THICK NAD THIN OF LIFE.....HAPPINESS AND MISERY.....BUT IM STYLL STANDING STRONG WITH U....I WISH  AND I HOPE THAT U WONT LEAVE ME....CORZ I REALLY NEED U....WHO ELSE I WANT TO TURN TO WHEN IM DOWN...WHEN I NEED SUMONE TO TALK TO...SAPER YG NK MANJE2 ,GURAU2 AND GDH2 WITH.......?PLZ DNT LEAVE ME......I LURVE U DY......!!!I WILL WAIT FOR UR CALL.....HOPEFULLY NOTHING  WILL BE CHARGE TO U...AMIN.....:(

I LURVE THEM...,

EVER SINCE THAT DAY....WE TEND TO GET CLOSER AND CLOSER....GO OUT TOGETHER,KAROAKE AT GRANDLINK AND STUFF ...NICE KNOWING  U TOO YANNI BBY AND RISHA...:pLUV U GUYS....AND TO MA DEAREST YANNI....THX FER THE MSG THAT U HAD SENT ME EARLIER.....ABT ME AND SMURFY......THX FOR UR CONCERN.....AND TAT IS SO SWIT....EVENTHOUGH IT IS JUST A  MSG....BUT THE CONTENT OF THAT MSG REALLY TOUCHES ME DEEPLY.....AWWW....THX!!!!


AND TO MA DEAREST BBY BOY......WATEVER HAPPENES TO U TOMOLO I WILL AND I SWEAR THAT I WILL WAIT FOR U....AND MA LUV FOR U WILL NOT CHANGE .....I PRAY HARD THAT NOTHING HAPPENS TO U BBY......I WILL BE DERE FER U.......AND HOPEFULLY U WILL BE DERE FER ME TOO........I LUV U....!!!!
                                                                                                                                               LUV SINCE 240210                                         

THE BEGINNING WAS HAPPY BUT THE ENDING WAS SAD

YESTERDAY WENT OUT WITH SMURFY TO WATCH 'STREET DANCE'...THE TICKET IS SELLING FAST SO ONLY LEFT WITH THE FRONT ROW THAT AVAILABLE FOR THE SEATS...AFTER ALL...NOT BAD UHK THE MOVIE.....:p
THEN YESTERDAY ALSO TON WITH SMURFY,YANNI,ATING,BAI ,ADAM AND WAN......EVERYTHING GOES SO SMOOTHLY WHEN SUDDENLY I SAW SMURFY DRUNK.....WTH!!!U SAE TO ME THAT U WONT DRINK ANYMORE ABEH NIE APER????I KEPT QUITE CAUSE I DNT WANT TO RUIN THE DAY......AND THEN SHE TXT HYM.....JUST TALKED ABT HER TO YANNI....DEN ALEH2 MSG.....ERRR...!




I CANT TAKE ANYMORE AND I CRIED.......THEN TALKED TO SMURFY PRIVATELY......BUT ITS LYKE NOT PRIVATE CAUSE HE IS LYKE SHOUTING AND HIS FRENZ CAN HEARD IT......
I WAS SO FUCKING DISAPPOINTED ......ALOT OF THINGS HE SAID TO ME.....HE TOLD ME TAT HE DRINKS BCORZ BAI OFFERED HYM.....THEN Y SELAME NIE PPL OFFERED U ,U CN SAE TAK NK....THEN AT THE FIRST PLACE Y,WHY U SAE TO ME TAT U PROMISE U WONT DRINK....SUMPAH2 LAGY....U BREAK UR PROMISE...UR PROMISE ARE MEANT TO BE BROKEN......


THEN I TOLD HYM TAT ...I CNT STAND THE WAY SMURFY AND SHE TXT EACH OTHER.......MMG LUH KRG COUSIN.....MMG KRG DAH KNL LAMER....I KNEW TAT....BUT U EXPECT ME TO TINK AND FEEL WHEN  KRG TXT ADR SYG2....BIE2.......U CANT BLAME ME FOR WAT  TAT  I TINK.....CAUSE THINZ HAS HAPPENED LAST TYME...WHEN I FULLY TRUSTED U...END UP U AND THAT AYUMI GOT SUMTHINZ ON.....NOW....IM JUST BEING CONCIOUS.....AM I WRONG????AKU  NIE MATAER KAU....SLH KE KALO AKU RASE LAEN WHEN BOTH OF U TXT TAT WAY?????I AM A NORMAL HUMAN BEING.......I HAVE FEELING TOO.....DOLLY IF U WERE IN MA SITUATION....HOW WOULD U FEEL IF UR BF DID TIS TO U????MMG I DNT WANT UR RELATIONSHIP WITH SMURFY SPOILT BCORZ OF ME.....BUT U MUST UNDERSTAND HOW IT HURTS .....U URSELF IS A GERL......U SHOULD NOE HW IT FEEL RYTE...?......
SMURFY....I NVR NVR EVER STOP U TO BE WITH UR FRENZ AND FAMILY....NVR!MMG I HAPPY TAT U WANT TO SPENT UR TYME WITH ME.....BUT THE WAY U TOLD ME YESTERDAY IS LYKE SAYING THAT IM CONTROLING U......AM I???TAK PERNAH PON I CONTROL U TAU.....YESTERDAY U WANTED TO SHOW ME UR TRUE COLOUR.....IM KEEP SILENT DOESNT MEAN THAT I DONT DARE TO FIGHT BACK,DOES MEANT TAT I DNT HAVE ANY POINTS TO SAE.....IT IS BCORZ IM HURT WITH  ALL THE WERDS THAT CAME OUT FRM UR MOUTH....ALOT.....TILL NOW WHEN IM WRITING TIS BLOG ...IT DOES HURT SOO DEEPLY......HE TOLD ME THAT ALL TIS ALONG ,OUR 5 MTHS TOGETHER HE IS ACTING ,2 FACE......Y??IM SOO DOWN AFT THAT......SO TIS IS WAT U WANNA TOLD AND SHOW ME THAT I TURN U INTO.....SO IM TEACHING AND CHANGING U TO BECOME A HYPOCRITE?????IS THAT WAT U WANNA SHOW????I DO ECXCEPT THE WAY U ARE....AND TRY TO UNDERSTAND U.....BUT U????DO U EVER EVER HAVE THE INISIATIVE TO ACCUALI UNDERSTAND ME????NO SMURFY....NOT AT ALL!!
I SHOWERED U WITH LOVE AND CONCERN BUT TIS I GET IN RETURN.......SERIOUSLY  I GIVE UP....IM NOT STRONG ENUF TO GO THROUGH ALL TIS.......
AT THE COFFESHOP.....AFT TALKED THINZ OUT TO U.....U DRINK AGAIN.....YES...MMG I KATER U NK MINOM U MINOM....BUT DEEP INSIDE U DNT NOE HOW I FEEL.....REALLY REALLY DISAPPOINTED WITH U .....U DNT MEANT WAT U SAE.....U DNT.....!PROMISE?????THE TERM PROMISE IS NVR  WITHIN U.....IF I WOULD CHANGE THE TYME BCK TO THE PAST.......I WILL PROVE TO U WAT U SAE TO ME......I MAYBE SMILING RYTE INFRONT OF U BT DEEP IN IM NOT.......WAT HAPPENED YESTERDAE I WILL.....I WILL REMEMBER TILL ETERNITY......
PLZ DNT TINK OF URSELF AJE.....THINKS OF OTHERS TOO......U NVR....NVR AT ALL SHOUT AT ME....AND ALL THE TINZ U DID TO ME YESTERDAY....NOW U DID.....U BUCK ME UP.....U GIVE ME A WAKE UP CALL...SERIOUSLY.....U TRYING TO PROVE TO ME THAT U CAN MAKE ME HATES U.........TO TELL U THE TRUTH.....IM DISAPPOINTED WITH U AND U REALLY REALLY HURTS ME.....SORRIE FER EVERYTHINZ.....