LATELY......I FEEL THAT SOMETHINZ IS NOT RYTE.........I NOT SURE WHY BUT I HEARD ALOT OF STUFF ABT HER AND HYM......IS THAT TRUE?????ALTHOUGHT SHE ALREADY HAVE A BF BUT HEY CUMON LAR....NOWDAYS.....LAKI ORG KE,TUNANG ORG KE,MATAER ORG KE....SUMER MAEN SAUP JEK......AM I RYTE..?NIE BKN NK SANGKE BUROK UHK BUT JUST WANT TO BE CONSCIOUS......IF TINZ HAPPENED TWICE.....HAISSS.....
JUST NOW....TAKED TO SMURFY OTP......TINZ ARE A BIT BETTER NOW BUT I DONT NOE WETHER ITS REALLY SINCERE TO BE WIT ME OR JUZ THE NO OF MTHS U ARE COUNTING.......WATEVER IT IS......I STYLL WILL KEEP EVEYTHINZ TO MYSELF AND SOLVE IT MYSELF.......TAK NK DEPENDS ON ORG UHK..........ANW....JUST NOW AUTOCAD LESSON FINISHED UP MA HOUSE SKETCH UP......MA FRIENZ SAID MA HOUSE IS NICE.......'SMILE WIDELY':p......IT TAKES HARD WORK TO DO THAT.....I SHOW MAMA MA HOUSE....THEN SHE SAE NOT BAD.....THEN I TOLD HER THAT I WNNA MA HOUSE TO BE LYKE WAT I DESIGN WHEN I GROW UP.....:p
WENT TO SCHOOL JUST NOW AND FINISH UP MY SKETCH UP.....BUT STYLL HAVE TO PUT FURNITURE AT MY HOUSE BEFORE SUBMITING IT....I HAVE BEEN CHECKING MY HP EVERY SGL TYME....BUT NO MSG FRM HYM.....SO DECIDED TO CALLED HYM AFT SKEWL AND WANTED TO TELL HYM SUMTHINZ....BUT NOE WAT....HE ANS THE PHONE AND THEN PUT IT DOWN.....AND I CALLED AGAIN.....AND HE REPEATS THE SMAE TINZ.....N HE SAE HIS BZ.....NOW DEN I NOE....U CNT SPARE UR OWN GF SOME OF UR TYME........U CNT RYTE...??SO I WONT TELL U.....KEEP TO MYSELF DEN......NOW.....ADYLA IS OFFICIALLY ALL BY HERSELF.....MA MUM IS ALWAYS BZ WITH HER WORK....I DNT REALLY SHARE MA PROB WITH MA BRO AND UNCLE.....MA SIS....ONLY IF SHE IS OUT HERE WIT ME....I MISSH HER DAMN MUCH.....SMURFY????BF???NO LONGER CARE ABT ME......FRENZ???THEY ALSO HAVE THEIR OWN PROB.....SO...JUST KEEP TO MYSELF.....ANW...HE SAE TAT HE WAS BZ AT 3 P.M.....LYKE HEY.....U WERK AT 5.......APER YG BZ NYER...??BLM KEJE PEK.....KN SENANG KATER TAK NK LYN.....EASY RYTE..?NVRM.....ITS OKAE.......RECENTLY HAVING SOME FINANCIAL DIFFICULTIES.....I WANT ASKED MA MUM FER MONEY BUT TAK SMPI HATI...SHE ALSO GOT ADR TINZ TO HANDLE......IM HUNTING FER JOBS...PART TYME.....NEED TO EARN MONEY MYSELF.....DNT WANT TO TELL OR ASKED FRM OTHER.....CORZ ONE DAY THEY WILL BRAG THINZ OUT........EVERY WERDS THAT HE SAES TO ME....MAKE ME REALISE......PPL SEE AKU NYER SENANG,TAPY SSH AKU...NO ONE NOES......NO ONE!!!!FOR WAT I DEPENDS AND PUT HIGH HOPE FOR SOMEONE THAT SAE THAT OUR 5 MTHS TOGETHER MEANTS NOTHING TO HYM.....SO BUCK UP...!!!!HOPEFULLY I CAN GET A JOB SOON....I NEED TO SUPPORT MYSELF.....MTK2 LUH DPT KEJE.....NOW....NO ONE TO LOOK FORWARD TO MET UP AFT SKEWL SO CORZ HE WANT TO LEAD HIS OWN WAY.......HAISS......HOPE TAT I CAN GO THROUGH SWEET AND BITTER OF MY LIFE.......
EXCUSE ME EIK......SERIOUSLY IM FUCKING PISS OFF RYTE NOW......!AKU ADR NK BAEK2 KN KEADAAN NGAN KAU TAPY KAU MSG AKU MCM GYTU.......BAEK SKALI.....EIK KALO PSL BENDE ULU-ULU GYNIE KAU NK GDH NGAN AKU....TAK MAKE SENSE EIK.....ANW....KALO KAU BLH ADR YG LAEN,DEN GO!!IM NOT FORCING U TO STAY EIK.....!SLAME AKU NGAN KAU...KE SAPE2 PON....AKU TAK PERNA EIK UNGKIT PSL DUET.....SO DAMN!!!DNT U EVER TALKED ABT MONEY TO ME!!!DUET TAK BWK MATI UHK.......KALO KAU RASE NIE 5 BULAN KTE TOGETHER NIE HARAM.....DEN DONT REGARDS ME AS UR GF....SIMPLE...!AKU TAK PERNA PON PAKSE KAU TO BE WIT ME N TGL KN BRUDER2 KAU EIK.....KAU NK GY MANER2 PON AKU TAK PERNA LARANG.......KALO KAU RASE AKU NIE MCM CONTROL IDOP KAU KE APER....DEN UAT APER KAU NK FRM NOW ON.....TAK PAYAH RISAU PSL AKU.....KAU TAK BLH NK PHM AKU..AND KAU EXPECT AKU PHM KAU TOTALLY.....APER NIE?!!KALO KAU RASE AKU NIE UAT BYK SLH KAT KAU....KAU PIKIR DULU SBLOM BBL EIK.....SAPER YG BYK UAT SLH NIE.....AKU KE KAU????AKU DIAM ORG PIJAK2 KEPALE AKU..........PATIENCE AKU ADR LIMIT UHK.......N PART PALING SIAK SKALI.......HIS NOT FEELING WELL AND HE SAE TIS TO ME...'IM SOORY.ONCE IM BETTA WE CNTINUE OUR ARGUEMENT AITES...."TAK MCM SIAL?????K SBRG LAR EIK......KALO TU APER KAU NK.....
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TODAY FINISHED SKEWL AT 12 BUT I WENT OFF AT 10.30 TO MIT SMURFY AT HIS HOUSE......WHEN I REACHED DERE.....I CALLED AND CALLED HYM FOR 25 TYME BUT HE DID NOT ANSWER AS HE WAS HAPPILY SLEEPING........DIER KALO DAH TDO TAK IGT DUNIA.....LTK BOM PON TAK AKN BGN.....HAHHAH....THEN I KNOCKED AT HIS DOOR UNTIL MA RIGHT MIDDLE FINGER IS REDDISH.....AND IT HUTS.....HAIYOOOO.....AFT 25 MINS OF WAITING FINALLY HE ANSWERED MY LAST CALLED AND OPENED THE DOOR......EVERYTHING WENT OFF SMOOTHLY ....AND I WAS HAPPY THAT I CAN SPENT TYME WITH HYM AS HIS COURT CASE YESTERDAY WAS BEING POSTPONE TO 9 AUGUST 2010.....THAT IS ON NATIONAL DAY.......WAH PIANG EIK.....HAISSS.....THEN HE STARTED TO TAKE HIS GUITAR AND WANTED TO STRUM THE STRING BUT I DNT LET HYM TO DO SO.....LYKE EVERY TYME WEN IM AT HIS HOUSE HE WILL PLAYED HIS GUITAR.....CNT U LYKE PLAYED IT WHEN IM NOT WIT U......CAN U LYKE SPENT UR TYME WIT ME......CN U???AND BCORZ OF THAT HE START TO 'PERANGAI' WIT ME.....I CALLED HYM BUT HE IGNORED......THEN I WAS DAMN PISS OFF....MIGHT AS WELL U SAE DNT NEED TO MEET U RYTE......IF U DONT WANT TO LAYAN ME........THEN I WORE MA SHOES AND WENT OFF.....AND HE NAGGED AT ME AND SAE'SERUPE LAEN KALI TAKYAH DTG,BUANG MASE!'AND HE SLAM HIS DOOR......WOW!NOT EVEN ONE PERSON EVER SLAM THE DOOR RYTE AT MA FACE AND HE WAS THE FIRST DARING ONE......SYABAS!!!THX ALOT FOR THE WONDERFUL TREATMENT TAT U HAVE GIVEN ME......APPRECIATE ALOT.......!...KLAR....SORRIE IF I WAS THE ONE TAT DOESNT LET U PLAYED UR GUITAR .....IF U FEEL TAT U MISSH ME OR WATEVER.....DNT FIND ME.....GO FIND UR GUITAR AND SPENT TYME WIT IT........KECOH UHK.....PSL A DAMN GUITAR CAN CREATE A FIGHT.......AM I WRONG TO LYKE ASKED MY OWN BF TO SPENT HIS FEW HOURS WITH ME WITHOUT ANY OTHER DISTRACTION BEFORE HE WENT OFF TO WERK.??????AM I WRONG????HAISSSS......CONFUSED......
TODAY I DIDNT GO SKEWL....CORZ IM SICK AND LAZY....:p....THEN ARD 12 REACHED SMURFY HOUSE....AT THE BEGINNING ,HIS MOOD SWING....SUDDENLY WANT TO SCOLD ME.......THEN AFT A WHILE HIS BCK TO NORMAL.....HURAYYYY!!!HE WANT SLEEP BUT I DONT ALLOW CAUSE LTR IM LONELY AND GOT NOTHING TO DO LIOW.....SO EVER TYME HE WNNA SLEEP I WILL DISTURB HIM....HAHAHH.....SORRIE LURP....:p.....
THEN SUDDENLY I REALISE SUMTING.....'WOMEN NATURE;..DAMN!!!!LUCKY IM AT HI SHOUSE NOT OUTSIDE...OR ELSE....PIASEYYY!!!!!THEN ARD 6P.M WENT TO SIT UNDER HIS BLOCK AND TALK TO HYM......AFT A WHILE HIS FRENZ,RARA AND MEI MEI ,COINCIDENT WALKED PASS AND SIT WIT US.....WENT THEY LEFT......SUDEENLY POLCE CAR HORN AT US.......DEN WE WANTED TO WALKED WAY ....PSL MLS NK KENE SCREEN BUT SKALI ONE OF THE OFFICER CALL US.....AND THAT WAS MY FIRST TYME KENE SCREEN......NVR EVER IN MA WHOLE ENTIRE 17 LIFE ....KENE SCREEN...KECOH!!!!SUWHEY XIA TODAY....HAIYOOO...AND NOW MY STOMACH IS HURTING SO BADLY......CRAMP LAR SEI....!ERRR!!!!!
TODAY WOKE UP LATE.....THEN LAZY WANT GO SKEWL CAUSE IM SICK.....IM DOWN WITH A FLU.....BUT ACCUALLY THEN TO NAS WHO TXT ME IN THE MORNING OR ELSE I GUESS IM STYLL SLEEPING.....THEN FIFA CALL ME SAID THAT SHE OTW TO WLDS INTER TAKE BUS 168 TO GO SKEWL.....SO I BATHE AND MIT HER AND NADHRAH AT WLDS INTER.....REACH SKEWL ARD 9.35 SO WE DID NOT WENT TO AUTOCAD CLASS....JUZ GO FER LIFESKILLS WITH END UP WE DID NOTHING AT CLASS.....SOOO BORING!!!THEN CLASS DISMISSED AT 12.....AFT THAT MEETS SMURFY AT TAMP INTER CAUSE HE FETCH ME DEN WE WENT TO MY HOUSE........HAD A GREAT TYME WIT HYM.....KTER GURAU KASAR...TUMBOK2 SUME JLN TEROS....HAHAHHA!!!!LURVE HYM LUH......DEN ARD 8 HE WENT BK HOME...........BEFORE THAT WE SIT UNDER MA BLOCK AND WE TALK2,LAUGH2,TOOK PICTURE....HEEE.....TIS IS SOME OF THE PIC I TOOK.....
YESTERDAY SMURFY SLEEP OVER MY HOUSE.....TILL TODAY EVENING..........BY RYTE HE ALWAYS GO BCK ON SUN AT 9 P.M IF HE SLEEP OVER AT MA HOUSE....BUT NOT TODAY....TODAY HE WENT OFF AT 5.30 CAUSE HE WNNA MEETS HIS'BRUDDER' CAUSE GOT MEETING.....HAISS....!I WNTED TO SPENT TYME WIT U BUT...../...IT SEEMS THAT THEY ARE LIKE MORE IMPORTANCE THAN ME......THEN U SAID THAT I NVR UNDERSTANDS U......APER NIE!!!!!KELIRU UHK WIT U.......HAISSS......!!!!LEFT A FEW MORE DAYS WIT U......CNT U UNDERSTAND THAT ALL UR GF WANTED WAS TO SPENT THE LAST FEW MOMENTS WIT U B4 UR COURT CASE.........THAT ALL I WANT!!!!!!!!!!BUT WHATEVER HAPPENS I WILL WAIT FER U N THE LURVE FER U WILL NVR FADE.............SHAYAAANG KAMURH......
AND TO MY TWO 'MENDAK FRENZ'....AKU TTP KWN KORG MCM BIASE TAK LEBIH TAK KURANG......AKU DAH ADER MATAER.....SOOO AKU RASE KRG PHM MAKSOD AKU KN.....IF U READS MY BLOG......JUZ WANNA SAE......AKU BLH ANGKAT GURAU TAPY TAKMAU MELEBIH2 PLAK......LAGY2 ONE OF U....YG DAH START MSG2 AKU.......ALTHOUGHT MA GUY NOE ABT IT......TAPY I DUNT REALLY LIKE THAT Y I DNT REPLY TO UR MSG......KAU PIKIR LUH...CUBE KAU ADER MATAER TPY MATAER KAU MSG2 NGAN ORG LAEN... ALTHOUGHT SHE UNGGAP DRG KWN JEK TAPY T KWN2 DIER PIKIR LAEN N START TO FALL FER HER.....TAK MANIS KN.......WATEVER IT IS......DERES A LIMIT FER EVERYTHINZ......IM ATT N TREAT ME LYKE ONE KAY.....HOPE U 2 GUYS UNDERSTAND............
WILL THIS BE LAST FEW MOMENT THAT I WILL SEE YOU???Y MUST THINGZ HAPPENED NOW????AFT LOVING U SO MUCH AND AFT OUR RELATIONSHIP GO FAR.......Y???I NEED YOU DY....!I NEED YOU!!WHY MUST HAPPINESS STOP HALF WWAY THROUGH.......WHAT HE JUST TOLD ME REALLY HAD A GREAT IMPACT ON MYSELF.....KALO U MASOK DLM....I MCM ANER???WHO I WANT SEEK FER...WEN IM DOWN???WHO??MY SIS DAH TKDER....DEN NOW U???WHAT EVER HAPPENED I PROMISE SMURFY...I WILL WAIT FOR YOU.........I SWEAR!!!NOTHING CAN BRING US APART.....EVENTHOUGH U ARE FAR FRM ME BUT U ARE CLOSE TO MY HEART.........I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU N THE MEMORIES BEING TOGETHER..............DUN LEAVE ME.................I NEED U SOO BADLY...!:(
SMURFY!!!I JUZ CANT STOP THINKING OF U......A LOT OF QNS IA WONDERING ARD MA MIND.....PRAY HARD THAT NOTHING WILL HAPPENED TO U.....DY....I SCARED IF THINGS WILL BE THE SAME AS WAT MA EX DID TO ME.....I DONT WANT IT TO HAPPENED FOR THE SECOND TYME.....TO BE FAR APART FRM YOUR LOVES ONES IS THE HARDEST THING TO ENDURE.....N WAT MAKE IT WORSE THAT U DONT EXPECT THE WAY IT WANNA BE NOW.....I JUZ NEED YOU TO BE BY MYSIDE NOW.......HOPEFULLY N PRAY HARD THAT HE WILL BE RELEASE TODAY.........WHATEVER HAPPENED I WILL WAIT FER YOU......I PROMISE!!!!!N I WILLL!!!!!
TODAY IS MY SADNESS DAY EVER!!!I WOKE UP AT 6.15 A.M TODAY AND RECEIVE A MSG FRM WAN,SMURFY FRIENZ.....HE SAID'DYLA,KAU DH BGN KOL AKU...URGENT!'SO I CALLED HYM.....BUT HE DIDNT ANS....I STARTED TO FEEL WORRIED....THEN HE CALLED ME BCK....HE TOLD ME THAT SMURFY IS AT BEDOK HQ...!!!YESTERDAY....WHILE THEY WERE EATING AT MACDONALDS....THE POLICE SCREEN THEM .....ALL OF THE REST ARE SAVE BUT HE WANTS SMURFY TO FOLLOW HYM BCK TO BEDOK HQ......RRR!!WHAT HAPPENED TO HYM????I DONT NOE WHAT SHOULD I DO......I AM NOT SURE IF HIS PARENTS NOE ABT IT......SHOULD I TELL???BUT I SCARED IF SMURFY DONT WANT HIS PARENT TO NOE......HAISS!!!!I STREES RYTE NOW!!!!!I PRAY HARD THAT NOTHING WILL HAPPENED TO U......!!!!TODAY ACCUALY WE HAD PLAN TO GO OUT TOGETHER BUT......!HAISSS!THINGS HAPPENED UNEXPECTEDLY.....IF ONLY HE DOES GO OUT YESTERDAY........HAISSS.....IM SOOO DOWN RYTE NOW........!IM WORRIED ABT U,SMURFY!!!!!
YESTERDAY....I TXT HYM THE WHOLE NIGHT BUT HE DID NOT REPLY.....THEN WHEN I FALL ASLEEP ALREADY...HE TXT ME SAY 'SORRY BIE,I SOT UHK PSL GAJI KEJE'....IDIOT XIA...MARAH NGAN ORG KEJE ABEH DRAG FEELING PAT AKU....ERRR!BUT THEN TO THINK BACK....ORG NGAH MRH..MEMANG MCM GYTU....SO JUST IGNORE IT....TAK KN PSL BENDE KECIK PON NK GDH KN....HMM...WATEVER IT IS AKU SHAYAAANG KAU LUH!!:)
TODAY ALSO I DIDNT GO TO SKEWL....OVERSLEPT....THEN LAZY WANT GO SKEWL CAUSE TODAY LESSON ENDS AT 5P.M......LATE XIA.....HEEE....TOMOLO THEN GO SKEWL.......:)
YESTERDAY....I TXT HYM THE WHOLE NIGHT BUT HE DID NOT REPLY.....THEN WHEN I FALL ASLEEP ALREADY...HE TXT ME SAY 'SORRY BIE,I SOT UHK PSL GAJI KEJE'....IDIOT XIA...MARAH NGAN ORG KEJE ABEH DRAG FEELING PAT AKU....ERRR!BUT THEN TO THINK BACK....ORG NGAH MRH..MEMANG MCM GYTU....SO JUST IGNORE IT....TAK KN PSL BENDE KECIK PON NK GDH KN....HMM...WATEVER IT IS AKU SHAYAAANG KAU LUH!!:)
TODAY ALSO I DIDNT GO TO SKEWL....OVERSLEPT....THEN LAZY WANT GO SKEWL CAUSE TODAY LESSON ENDS AT 5P.M......LATE XIA.....HEEE....TOMOLO THEN GO SKEWL.......:)
AS USUAL TODAY GO SKEWL MEETS NADHRAH AND NAS AT WLDS INTERCHANGE....THEN NADHRAH NOT GOING TO CLASS CAUSE SHE HAD TO GO FLOORBALL TOURNAMENT....AND DECIDED TO HAVE BREAKFAST AT MACDONALDS AT TAMP MALL....NAS WENT BCK HOME CAUSE HE IS SLEEPY......LESSON WAS SOO BORING THAT I NEARLY FALL ASLEEP....WAITED TILL 3 P.M THEN WENT TO BUGIS WITH FIFA....I BOUGHT BEG AND CLOTHES WHILE SHE BOUGHT A SHOES .....HAD FUN WITH HER BUT QUITE TIRING....HAIS...!THEN TXT SMURFY....HAD A CONFLICT OR TO BE SPECIFIC ,WE HAD MISUNDERSTANDING ONE ANOTHER....THEN DID NOT TALKED TILL I REACHED HOME.....BUT THEN HE REPLY MY MSG SO LATE....LYKE WTH!!WHERE ARE U???WHAT ARE U DOING???WIT WHO??TONS OF QNS WONDERING IN MY MIND.....HAIYOOOO!!!!LET HYM BE DEN.....;(
today starts skewl already.....but styll holiday mood....went for graphic class n decided not to go math class cause the rest of my classmates are watching floorball....so decided to mit smurfy who is juz abt to go to skewl......then he nvr go skewl cause he wants mit me.....then went to century square and accompy him eat curry noodles.....accualy he bought tat noodles for me cause i havent eaten but yet i dont want to eat cause i noe he have not eaten.....soo sweet of him....after that went to my house watch 'seniman bujang lapok'.....everythings goes
smoothly.....UNTIL!!!dere is a part went he want sleep.....i get annoyed cause every times he meets me..he tend to sleep.....might as well takyah jumpe kn....the purpose of meeting u is to spent tyme together.....err....then when i want to wake hym up....he lyke mad.....secondly....i feel lyke he is hiding sumtinz frm me...today....every single minits he will check his hp and he keeps holding it....lyke as if waiting for sumone to call or txt him....then he also put his hp on silent mode......i asked why...he said ltr his hp batt flat.....lyke wth!!b4 tis he can put his hp on normal mode but why not today......fishy......or maybe i am too into hym until i am so concern n jealous at tyme...haiss!n i hate the part when he says to me that bcorz of me.....he lyke not wit frenz n family......lyke....i dnt even control u not to be with ur frenz....u was the one that doesnt want.....are u n ur frenz trying to sae i am the cause of everything...?????hasiss!!!i am rather fuck up ryte now.......
i HAVE BEEN WITH U SINCE WEDNESDAY....AND WHEN SUDDENLY WE ARE APART...I TEND TO MISSH YOU....HAISS....TODAY IS THE DAY THAT I REALLY FEEL HARD TO LET U GO EVEN THOUGH JUZ GOING BCK HOME.....I NOE THAT UR DAY HAS BEEN HORRIBLE SINCE WEDNESDAY...AND U NEED ME BY UR SIDE.....BUT TYME NVR SUITS US....I NEED TO GO BCK HOME....SERIOUSLY....BLER U ANTAR I KAT OUTRAM MRT....N U WANT TO WALK OFF....I DONT NOE WHY BUT MY TEARS JUZ WANT TO DROP DOWN....IM NOT SURE WHY....BUT THE FEELING IS LYKE....UNDESCRIABLE...DY...I LURVE U SHAYAANG.....DNT EVER2....LEAVE ME....MISSHHING HYM.........:(
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