For the past few days ...i feel like im alone....status only shows that im attached..but the real fact i dont feel like i am....he spent most of his time with other things...when he with me,his mind and heart is totally not with me....physically his with me...but mentally....he's busy texting his friends or check his facebook or twitter...but when he's with his friends ....when i text him.....i didnt get the same attention as his friends....he will just ignored my messages...am i not that important like his friends???..why can't i get the same treatment as them?all i expect for is for him to just reply my messages...is that too much to ask for???i only left with a few more days with him before he go serve for national service....all i wanted is to spend my few days left with him.....but seem like he dont need me...and just now...the whole entire day he didnt even spent time with me...but he spent time at his hp....since 2 p.m till now...his been with the phone....why the hell he want to meet me if all he wanted is to use his hp....?might as well he go back home straight...and to my shock...he did lay his hand on me...........i feel more like a partner than a lover......dont i have feeling too??with a glimpse of an eyes...ppl change.....what he ever care for is himself....do he ever thought what he did to others???did he??he throw his tantrum as and when he wish...am i still forcing myself to accept this???am i?....when i first know him...he never dare to lay a finger on me...never?
!but why now everything seems to change??.he call me names....then why he still want me??why??is he making use of me??alot of things i been keeping to myself....when is the time am i going to burst out???till when can i control my patient for him???.if his asking for prefection......i cant deny that im not perfect......it hurts you more when the person u never expect to treat harshly to u turn out to be the one....dear..smurfy..all i ask for is for u to  spent time with me.......and show me some sense that im needed in your life........sorry if what i ask you is too much for you.....i hope u realised soon that u are being harsh..........